Pavithra you dont be a retard. NO you cannot go back to India for the next few days to see your little cousins and eat nice food.
D:



So my room is a little bit cleaner but loads of work left to be done... Cannot finish everything by tonight or I wont have anything to do tomorrow.

I am serious I really really want to go to school. There is this emptiness where school is supposed to be. And i dont like it at all

Tell me how to grow fatter? How how how. I DO eat ok. I dont understand why people say I starve myself. I LOVE food.
Wanying insulted me yesterday saying im ugly because ive become thinner over the month.. My dad has been saying that too. Sadded
:((

Bored. There are many pictures i want to upload but am too lazy to do so.

Someone rescue me please. Im being too random for my own good.

♥ prettypau posted at, 21:14 ♥

I dont even know what im doing everyday. Waking up at 1pm everyday is not fun anymore.
It's really boring and feels terrible.

Yesterday was better :D Met Gabby to walk around town. Then wanying joined us to eat.
We couldnt find anything nice to buy.
OH yes we watched The Fourth Kind.Super disappointing. If not for the popcorn, i would have fallen asleep halfway into the film. It was a bit creepy at times but overall sucky.
They didnt even show us the face of the alien. I dont care I demand alien movies show the bloody aliens face.
Wasted my money.

That reminds me

WHY THE HELL IS PUBLIC TRANSPORT SO EXPENSIVE.
And i have to constantly remind myself to tap the stupid card before getting off the bus.
Want my student fares back.

Actually right now it doesnt make much of a differencce since i dont even go out.
Noone wants to hire me. Why.
And i have no more money omg.

My room looks disgustingly messy. Mom is screaming at me now.
but cant get my lazy self to go clean it all up.
This is going to become a disease. The CantGetYourButtMoving disease.
:(

I HATE STAYING AT HOME DOING NOTHING EVERY DAY
it sucks.



I will now force my poor unemployed self to go clean my room.

♥ prettypau posted at, 18:17 ♥

IM BACK FROM INDIAAAA :)

This trip was not as fun as the previous ones... cause i fell sick thrice!! And hence could not eat as much rubbish as before :( And and and there was so much banking stuff to do in the first week. Damn boring.

Plus we had to clean up our flat. Bloody couple who stayed there maintained it like shit. They were paying such low rent some more. Idiots.
My flat used to look like a pretty little palace when i used to stay there :'(

Effectively my holidays were only 6 or 7 days. Time spent in vellore was amazing as usual. We didnt shop a lot. Actually we didnt shop at all.

Staying at home in each others company was way more important, and enjoyable.

We went to some temples on a weekend. Super nice. They were 300, 400 years old each. What you pray for in those temples are said to come true :)

Oh yes, my little cousins. ADORABLE x100000000000.
I had such an awesome time irritating them. hehe.

I couldnt bear to leave at all. Especially when she started crying and the younger one started packing to come along with us. But we had to go.

We went back to the awesome flat that moms friend lent us for 3 days. I fell sick again. So frustrating. We were supposed to go shopping on the last day :(

OMG the flight back to S'pore is probably the worst experience i will ever have on a plane.
Im amazed i actually survived 4 hours on that horrible flying thing.

(I forgot to mention of this minor surgery on my foot which has left the bottom of my right foot with a hole-diameter 5mm. Gross right. I know.)



So its been 5 days since ive returned. I was really sick/bedridden till today. I have to find a job.
i dont know how :(

Why does everyone seem to have a job already.

♥ prettypau posted at, 12:33 ♥

This prom is definitely more memorable than my secondary schools one.

I was too lazy to go out to style my hair so just did whatever i could at home. Turned out alright i guess :]

I Loved Yesterday:DD


Love you girls!


And the guys too (though you made us walk a freaking one km in our heels)
:D

Some pictures:


yenpeng^
deva^

rinitaa^
ju^
shamini^



huixian^
The food at Swissotel was damn gross la... But noone really cared about the food.
OMG i couldn't take a picture with Jerone la!!! Super sad...

Apparently helipad was horrible crowded and expensive... So we didnt go there. Also cos we didnt really know how to get there in the first place. haha.

So we chose,
LUNAR.

i got a shock when we went in. They were singing some old chinese songs for very long-.-

BUT it got better and we went to dance. The guys dance funnily. haha super cute la. Had a great time dancing.




Wish i could've stayed longer but the people returned to singing old songs so we left.




Yes, last night was a good good night

♥ prettypau posted at, 10:34 ♥

YAY went for dinner with rinita yesterday:) her treat. Thankyou iloveyou
We had quite some to walk along orchard bitching and laughing at stupid stuff.

If you're reading, i would like to tell you, what we were hoping for is not gonna happen tonight. Sad right. I know.

Today is prom.

I want to watch many more movies but no time...Because there is packing and cleaning up to do and I've not done anything yet. Mom is going to kill me... my room went back to being a pig sty AGAIN. There are clothes, bags, shoes, chocolate all over the floor and my bed D:




I wish I was your favorite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favorite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favorite kind of style

I wish i was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep.

All I know, is that you're soo nice :)

♥ prettypau posted at, 08:20 ♥

4. The Curious Case of Benjamin Button - fell asleep watching it.

5. 500 Days of Summer - totally boring, waste of time. Fell asleep watching it. Woke up a few minutes before the end... The ending was quite nice. Oh and of course, Zooey Deschanel was really pretty.


Daily sugar intake is sky rocketing. Bad. very bad.

♥ prettypau posted at, 13:22 ♥

i just looked through all my school conduct records since primary school.

Almost every single one of them say : Pavithra has a calm disposition ... ...

I found it really funny.
Teachers are quite weird. I am not calm... At least, i dont think im very calm.




Watched :
1. The proposal - quite funny!
2. I Love You Beth Cooper - a little boring but not that bad.
3. Seven things to do before I'm 30 - Really very sweet movie :)

♥ prettypau posted at, 19:09 ♥

No, people don't just become stupid overnight!
Or do they.

Whatever.

Ive been staying home watching movies, sleeping, watching tv, watching movies, ...

Applied for a few jobs. Super confident that i won't get them. But just applied to make myself feel better- at least i applied right.
I think im gonna be a full-time volunteer instead. Dont know where my money is going to come from... dont really care.

I cant wait for the 10th of december!!!


I likes this.


Have not found nice shoes yet .
OH shoes where are you ?

♥ prettypau posted at, 17:25 ♥

has got to be THE CUTEST kitten in the world. I cant stop watching it :D

♥ prettypau posted at, 14:17 ♥

i woke up with a horrible feeling. AGAIN!

These weird nigthmares of economics are haunting me!! Ok the first time it was about me failing the A level econs paper badly. Seeing the results i was so depressed that i decided to kill myself. I could actually feel the pain of failing the paper, in my sleep. Totally sucks.

Then there were many many more... All related to me doing econs badly. Not necessarily in the As but some random exam.

Last nights one was damn weird.. I open the question paper from which i have to choose 8 essays to da, and realise that i dont know how to do ANY.
I still remember all the questions that i saw!!! This is freaking me out.

ECONS, GO AWAY I DONT WANNA SEE YOU ANYMORE!

ok let me try to forget about it.


I am beginning to hate this feeling of staying at home all day with nothing much to do. Must go to the library today... I dont feel like watching movies online or playing games or whatever.

I like going out :) Why is everybody so busy.




Oh yes, yesterdays little india trip!

Damn funny thanks to dear wanying (expected)

I was supposed to lead the way la. But as you all should already know, im a blur queen. We couldnt really find the place gabby wanted to go for threading. So we moved on.

But hey i managed to take them to mustafa AND city square mall and back home without getting lost :D
Think they were quite amazed at the size of mustafa and how they sell everything there is to sell in the world. I went all the way to mustafa to buy deodorant. Ping bought a hairclip.

It was sooo hot. Stupid weather spoiled our shopping mood.

To eat and recharge, we went to Macs. Funny right. Went to little india and didnt even get to eat indian food.

Sat there for super long chatting and eating :)



A woman made a pass at Yiping. HAHAHAHA. Too pretty ready la..women oso want.

♥ prettypau posted at, 10:25 ♥

i miss spongebob squarepants.

♥ prettypau posted at, 21:47 ♥

Right, so A levels are over.

I FREAKING FINISHED MY As PEOPLE!!!

This feels amazing. but not amazing as i thought it would feel... (i know i didnt do well at all)

I now have more than 6 months of dont-need-to-study time. W O W.
Cant wait for december 10... to go away. well at least for a while.

Oh and since MOE freaking rejected me( so damn saddening), i have to find a job. Cause right now, i am surviving on my very minimal savings and they are not gonna last long. probably ANOTHER WEEK AT MOST :((
I've been spending money like im earning in thousands everyday or something. Ive so many new clothes!! Wardrobe exploding.

Today yenpeng and me went to little india. I had to go to buy lamps-my mom forced me to go. Peng was nice enough to accompany me :) We found city square mall. How many of you knew that existed? Got nice shoes form D&C and walked around for quite long. Should go back cos its still mostly under construction...

Then we came out to go back home. And got lost. Thankfully mommy saved us:D

Going to little india with gabby and ping tomorrow!! Those two wanna thread their eyebrows. It looks really painful. Why do people want to inflict pain on themselves. And pay to do so...
It does look good after la but still, PAINNN


Almost forgot... 2012 is an awesome movie. But it made me sad for the whole day la. What if the world really is ending? :(
I've too many things left to do, to say.
It CANNOT be ending. it cannot.



Oh and to you, go back home and think.
Our friendship is way too precious to give up this way. Our love for each other makes up for whatever little imperfections and differences we've got right?
I dont care whose fault it was. Lets forget bout it.
Peace, k?

♥ prettypau posted at, 20:34 ♥

more importantly, i spent the whole of today, DOING NOTHING-- OMYGOD this is more exciting than i thought it would be.
Can you believe it, i skipped shopping today to stay at home..!


Oh i found my dress yesterday. And bought loads of other stuff too!

Tmr got family stuff :D


And SATURDAY, YOU BETTER ARRIVE FASTER!!!

♥ prettypau posted at, 22:13 ♥

Everyday is so fun :D

I did a lot of shopping today and yesterday OMG

but im lazy to update.

and very very sick. stupid nose of mine.

♥ prettypau posted at, 20:02 ♥

I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin' like a child now.

you make me smile,
please stay for a while now

:D

♥ prettypau posted at, 17:29 ♥

physics <3

but econs tmr. scared. if it's like the essay paper, sure fail.

i will not forget today!!!
almost froze to death in the hall la.

♥ prettypau posted at, 19:04 ♥

Ytd was the first time i have ever panicked like mad during an exam. I almost gave up doing the paper halfway. Ended up reading a question wrong too.


Physics better be good :D


Show me your ways, oh lord, teach me your paths.

♥ prettypau posted at, 07:59 ♥

Saw this somewhere and decided to share :D




1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It is the ultimate anti-depressant.
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Buy a DVR and tape your late night shows and get more sleep.
4. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, ‘My purpose is to __________ today.’
5. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
6. Play more games and read more books than you did in 2007.
7. Make time to practice meditation, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.
8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.
9. Dream more while you are awake.
10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
11. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, wild Alaskan salmon, broccoli, almonds & walnuts.
12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
13. Clear clutter from your house, your car, your desk and let new and flowing energy into your life.
14. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip, OR issues of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
15. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
16. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a college kid with a maxed out charge card.
17. Smile and laugh more. It will keep the nagative blues away.
18. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
20. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
21. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
22. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
23. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: ‘In five years, will this matter?’
26. Forgive everyone for everything.
27. What other people think of you is none of your business.
28. Remember God heals everything.
29. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
30. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
31. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
32. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
33. The best is yet to come.
34. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
35. Do the right thing!
36. Call your family often.
37. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I am thankful for _______. Today I accomplished ____.
38. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.
39. Enjoy the ride. Remember this is not Disney World and you certainly don’t want a fast pass. You only have one ride through life so make the most of it and enjoy the ride.
40. Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can’t change.

♥ prettypau posted at, 17:06 ♥

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold,
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

♥ prettypau posted at, 09:12 ♥

Today is one of the days i feel like killing myself.

Econs consultation was supposed to be from 8 to 9 morning. So i left my house at around 7. It was raining, there was no bus for approximately 20 minutes AND there was a really bad traffic jam. So i reached at 850!!!! damn irritated. But she extended it a little so it wasn't really that bad la.

After econs eunice n i went to the canteen for food. I saw Shabir at the same drinks stall. And my stupid head just decided not to go talk to him. Eunice was like PAU GO SAY HI! But i didnt. My brain is just... ... .... ....

Then on the way home i took LRT from bukit panjang. Guess what.
In the extremely crowded station, i flagged the approaching train. The train was quite full too.
I freaking FLAGGED an LRT. I rock right.

Really felt like digging a hole in the ground to bury my head.

♥ prettypau posted at, 11:50 ♥

OMGGG its wednesday!!!!


anyway sis bday was on sunday
the bearbear is damn cute right!! :DD

me and my super crazy mom. now you know why im like this.
dont know why this pic looks so distorted. but still nice.

im bored at home.

♥ prettypau posted at, 07:44 ♥

Some teachers are really godsend.
Like the one i met today in school :)


I have such little time left!
but i think i can finish revision by the 9th. I THINK.

A weirdo company just called me to say I'm shortlisted for an interview. The company is in freaking eunos. crazy. It would take 2 hours for me to get there everyday!
She wouldn't tell me the avarage salary to expect though i asked twice. Should be very low la that's why she doesn't wanna say.
Plus the interview is tomorrow. No time to go all the way there anyway. Never mind. Can find job laterr.

Study now. I'm doing econs essays like a mad woman. And ignoring chem. And phy. And maths.
Whatever. At least im doing something what.

going to do maths now.

♥ prettypau posted at, 17:11 ♥

I have a ROCK where my BRAIN is supposed to be.

That's why la.

All the rocks fault.

♥ prettypau posted at, 11:27 ♥

Rubbish.

I expect it to be me,

of all the 6.792 billion people in the world to choose from.

Rubbish.

♥ prettypau posted at, 18:17 ♥

er ya. the title.



Farewell assembly was not what i expected. But at least they bothered to order food for us.

We got back results slips on friday too. I dont even know how to describe the fear in me now. Im scared. I'm really really really really scared. Im afraid of letting down myself and the people who believe in me so much.

I keep telling myself that i am going to achieve what i want to. But i still cant get rid of this horrible feeling. I cant sleep properly at night. My appetite is really bad now- Im eating a tenth of what i eat normally. Sometimes i dont eat at all.

Deepavali was yesterday. It was just like any other day. Had no mood to celebrate. I went out to play with sparklers with sis and dad at night... We played for a very long time. I was so stupid. Cos I kept talking to my sparklers. I think they actually heard me.

In addition, my obsession with you is such a distraction to my already very distracted head.

♥ prettypau posted at, 12:14 ♥

We ARE going for grad night :D

I have been suffering from a very bad case of sore throat.
and some infected hair follicle on my arm. why. Of all things my hair follicle gets infected.
I think the doctor diagnosed wrongly because the dumb gooey white ointment is not helping at all. I must go back again tomorrow. eee i dont like clinics.

I am now going mad. I realised an hour ago that econs tutorial is tmr... omg imagine what ms wong would have done to me if i forget to go tmr AAAAHHH!
anyway that means

!!!! i must do the case study+one essay now = panic.

i am not using my time very wisely. i woke up at 10 and wasted away in front of the computer till 3. Then studied chem till 8plus, which is the wrong thing to be studying ( tmr is econs, fri is phy mock)

The recent events have all shown that :
MY ECONS HAS SOME HOPE LEFT AFTERALL!

After the end of this week,
we have 3 weeks left right?




I CAN DO THIS :D

♥ prettypau posted at, 22:18 ♥

I feel really really bad for Ris Low.

I cant wait for friday :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

My prelim results suck.

Im not going for prom.

I think im gng to miss school.
A lot.

♥ prettypau posted at, 17:32 ♥

♥ prettypau posted at, 15:37 ♥

i wonder if you ever realised, I HATE YOU.

i said its my fault what! YES I FORGOT TO COMPLETE MY SGC. I didnt blame you, did I?

all i did was ask you if you could help me. if you dont want to then SAY SO LA.
i ALWAYS RESPECT MY TEACHERS AND DONT LIKE TO BITCH ABOUT THEM.

but i think you dont deserve it. you make me hate you like I've never hated anyone in my entire lifetime.

you said that you chose not to help. you could have replied "im not gng to help" RIGHT?

i would have looked for someone else...!

i cannot stand that you DO NOT CARE HOW I DO IN MY EXAMS. why the hell are you teaching? i cannot stand that you do not want to give me consultation. I cannot stand that you think im stupid.

I DID NOT PON CHEM LECTURE BCOS I THOUGHT I WAS TOO SMART.
I know im not smart alright? ( i think that gives you some sort of sadistic joy)

I did not go for lecture because, you CHOSE not to help me.
Remember?

you CHOSE not to reply to my sms and CHOSE not to pick up my calls. You CHOSE not to help your student who was asking for your favour.

Well it turns out that i do not need your help afterall. I THANK GOD.
So ya, you can just continue to ignore my existence and concentrate on your H3 students.

HAPPY?

OH AND I WOULD RATHER FAIL IN MY As than ask you for help again.

i think its just my luck to have gotten you.

im making this clear:

IM ANGRY AT MY LUCK OK? NOT YOU.





I believe that working harder will improve my grades. And that's just what im going to do.

♥ prettypau posted at, 14:50 ♥

I have failed terribly.

But you know what?
Im not gonna sit and cry. NO.

Instead, im gonna work harder

Cannot help feeling a little disappointed
It will go away.

I hope.

♥ prettypau posted at, 16:32 ♥

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